The dilemma of the being

Summer makes everything so green. I find myself somewhere between dreaming and doing, which makes me to think about the meaning of the present time. There's not much to say. Recently I have not have much time to think or write. I enjoy the short vacation I'm having which is so much better than the one a yeag ago. Things have changed, indeed. The beginning of the path that leads to the solution of the dilemma of the being is in the realization to not to care so much. To solve the dilemma one has to find the balance between the moment and the being. The being-of-the-self does not reveal itself in the flash of the moment, but to contemplate too much on the dilemma leads one to lose the sight of the continuance of the flashes. I think that the miseries of life have taught me a valuable lesson I could not have learned without all the disappointments and failures. Maybe it was worth it all the time after all. I see the dark clouds in the horizon. Meanwhile the sun shines brightly through the green trees. Could I have found the beginnng of the path? I have already wasted enough time. Thank you dear reader. Thank you my beloved one. The dilemma is still unresolved, but I couldn't care for it right now. It's time to go outside.